I have this problem. I can't seem to fall asleep. Not like ever, just tonight. I have ideas about why, but I can't say for sure. Maybe it is the fact that I go to bed too late every night and my body is not used to being in the slumber state until at least 1 AM. Maybe it has something to do with not being at my own house. Not that I am all that uncomfortable here at my sister's house, but the unfamiliar surroundings could be playing a part. It could be that I did pretty much nothing all day today except eat and sit in a recliner. I got in a nap this afternoon. So, that could be adding to the insomnia.

What ever the cause, I just laid in the bed for over half and hour and never even approached stage 1.

While I was laying there, I began to think. Not so much voluntarily, but thoughts just started running through my cerebral cortex. One thing led to another and then I was lost in them. This is the point at which I would normally fall asleep and end up dreaming about whatever it was that I was thinking about prior to getting knocked out by the sandman. However, tonight things did not work out that way. Maybe it was because I was excited about my grand scheme that I put together.

Recently, I have been bothered by... unhappy with... perplexed by... I'm not sure what the proper verbiage would be, but in short I something I am dealing with that I do not like. Well, I had some sort of epiphany while laying there not sleeping. The more I thought about it, the more I liked the idea. I would tell all two of you that read this, but it involves other people and I would like to discuss my solution with them before unveiling it to the world. Soon enough, you will hear about it.

It is sort of one of those things that you pray about in search of some guidance on the best way to handle something. Well, I did that and I feel like I have an answer. However, I am so weak that I question whether this is the guidance I was seeking, or if this is me just coming up with something because I am tired of dealing with something.

It makes me think about in the New Testament where Jesus goes up to some of the disciples and says "Follow me." I do not remember reading where they questioned it much. They just dropped what they were doing and went along.

Maybe I just need to listen and just "follow".

Then again, maybe I just need to go to sleep.